Dont get any closer

I cant give you love, nor can be stuck by dove; I know I'm a loser, please do not get any closer. I dont make friends, nor do I have any enemies; But whats the need of weird chemistries.

Fun and frolic is what you need, then why do you have to dig a friendly seed? Its with closest people you stay, but please, keep them at a bay; so that when you are in earth leaving gear, there is no one to shed a tear. I know, I know I am a loser, please do not get any closer.

Its the company that matters

Hahahha!!! Seeing my last blog you must be thinking this would be another post on my new company. But actually its not.
This weekend was a long weekend, so I accompanied few friends to Jaipur. I had been their earlier on a school excursion but the complete trip was quite diffferent.
The last time I was their I was amongst a crowd of friends but was actually alone sobing of being in solitude. Their were many happy faces around me but my face had a big depressing gloominess. Seeing every others enjoying pinched me harder everytime I felt that misisng in my life. Thoughout the trip I was thinking of getting back home asap.
This time the veniue was same, but I was amongst a few best pals of my life. I was very excited and had a cheerful smile throughout. I was happy to see happier faces around and enjoyed what i had badly missed last time. I never thought that the same place could be so much fun for me. I wanted to spend every moment and even felt the shortage of time.
Truly, it is teh company you are with that matters the most and not the place. Not only you have great time with them but you ooze out cnfidence, excitement and self motivation for you to remain happy for several days.

New Workspace

Its been a week at my new workplace. From an IT company I have moved to a manufacturing domain, though my work reamins a little similar but on a different gear. Earlier I used to be a part of a service provider working as per customer needs, now I am a customer to such service providers and get work done. You feel really good when there is a change in your daily routine, the monotonous schedule gets a break.
The last few months of my older company had passed under humiliation and embarrasment for the deeds of our employer, who struck the world with one of the biggest financial frauds ever for which my older company was termed as India's Enron. The customers had started exiting there and the whole day used to go in playing spider or minesweeper.
Thank God with the change in the company, I am back to work. Since day one, I have work here. I am feeling so good. Its definitely a good change if I am right.
Culture wise, it looks great. You have your own working freedom and flexibility. Innovation is embraced whole heartedly and you can have your own way of defining process.
Overall, so far so good....lets see how my new journey goes on.

.........Yuwaan

It hits hard from within,
When I am all to myself.
It hits even harder,
In the midst of ourselves.

I thought I was lucky, to have you all around;
but forgot to ask if you were ready to be bound.
Weather is bd and storm is blowing thongs away,
Mistrust and distress are all the times here to stay.

Everytime we feel we are gonna go places,
the feeling of jealousy and discomfort in my heart, leaves traces.
It had happened earlier and its happening now,
When I ask myself what, when and how?

What was destined to get us back here,
It seems the lord above hasnt learned from his mistakes all these years.
He knows, staying with friends raises my expectations,
But feels so ignored that I can still confirm with conviction.

O, lord please do not play the game called friends with me,
The pain within, more often on my face is seen.
My luck does not work in this lovable game,
And I end up falling in a melancholy confused drain.


............Yuwaan